It's Benz's time of the month..

[Jesse]

This is a fair warning for all of you. Listen up and listen good.

I've recently become depressed, and have even had the good 'ole fun thoughts of suicide. If any of you dares to say, "lol emo", you can kiss your accounts good bye, permanently. This is a very sensitive subject to me, and quite possibly one of the most difficult times in my life. I will be very easily angered, so don't even try to joke with me, I will not be timid with my punishments. I suggest that you guys don't even talk to me unless you need help, because there's some things that you shouldn't say to me right now.

I'm sorry that I'm having to warn you, but it's better to warn you all then telling it to you once it's too late. I'm not being a drama queen, I just don't want to deal with the troubles.

[D1sturb3d]

I know what your going through ive had the same thing happen to me hope you get through this ok. If you need a person to talk to pm me and ill give you my e-mail and we can talk on MSN.

[Snowwy Skilz]

Dude Just A Suggestion.... Why Dont u Take Some Time Of Dodian...

[N I C K]

Alright, I will make sure not to piss you off.

Dont think about suicide okay?

Dude Just A Suggestion.... Why Dont u Take Some Time Of Dodian...

Well, if he did that and he came back to Dodian he would have to work his was up to admin again which I am sure he doesnt want to do. It took him 6 months as a global to get admin. he doesnt want to do it again.

[Noles]

Don't taze me, bro.

Dude Just A Suggestion.... Why Dont u Take Some Time Of Dodian...

Because he loves us so.

[mibbit]

i had tese thoughts too meany times

[Sloth]

Benz, this can be hard but just stick through it man, the Dodian Community is behind you. :) <3

[Brains]

Don't taze me, bro.


http://icanhascheezburger.wordpress.com/files/2008/03/funny-pictures-fighting-cats-constructive-feedback.jpg

http://i270.photobucket.com/albums/jj111/Kebochblog/depression.jpg

[Max]

Love you Benzy.

[Jesse]

Dude Just A Suggestion.... Why Dont u Take Some Time Of Dodian...

I'd get off Dodian but I need a distraction. The less time I spend in real life, the less time I will spend with the person causing these troubles. I am addicted to a drug (it's a person, but whatever), and I'm going cold turkey. I need to remove myself from the essence of the problem, and that's what I'm doing.

[mibbit]

I'd get off Dodian but I need a distraction. The less time I spend in real life, the less time I will spend with the person causing these troubles. I am addicted to a drug (it's a person, but whatever), and I'm going cold turkey. I need to remove myself from the essence of the problem, and that's what I'm doing.
well start and play sports, it will be a good start

[Jesse]

I do play sports, I'm highly involved with a soccer program.

[Nottz]

Benz, regarding your thoughts of suicide comment; Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Things may be hard now, but they could get better, and you lose the chance to have things get better when you commit suicide.

[D1sturb3d]

Benz I just realized that you are really well spoken. :)

[Spot]

Benz, actually come play the server with me :)

[Masterlop]

Like I told you, I had these thoughts about a week to two weeks ago, and I got through it. If I can, then so can you.

If you want to talk about it, just pm me on the forums.

[Italia Mafia]

We've been trying to help you through it on Irc, so just talk about everything to get it out of your head. Or you can actually play the server maybe. Gives you something else to do.

-Nick

[K and O]

Yeah man. Play the server, level some skills. That will keep your thoughts occupied.

[Asian]

I'm serious here, so don't take it as a joke.


Buy WOW. It will seriously take your mind off of it.(it could suck you in :o)

[LiverpoolFC]

Hope you get through this tough time.

[K and O]

I'm serious here, so don't take it as a joke.


Buy WOW. It will seriously take your mind off of it.(it could suck you in :o)

True. I've seen some cases of people saying they hate WOW.

Then they go download the Trial, love it and buy the whole thing. I'll never get sucked into that WOW atmosphere.. Never..

[Asig]

lol im playin wow right now! WOOHOO

[ratmaster90]

i used to have some depression issues, but then i burned the wrong stuff, got sent away and the nice people in the white coats gave me some happy pills. anybody here that takes depression litely deserves alot more than a permanent ban, ive lost too many friends at school and too many friends in my neighborhood.

i may portray my experience jokingly but depression is NO JOKE

my advice would be to see a shrink and dont be afraid to open up. once you open up the healing can begin. they didnt get their degress for coloring in the frontal cortex on a work sheet. some shrinks have unorthodox methods, for example my therapist had me sculpt what i saw in my mind in clay, but whatever they do its for a reason.

[Hugh Hefner]

That sucks that you are going through this problem,
Add me on MSN,
'iTz_x_Sky@live.com'
I have talked to a bunch of my ex-girlfriend's about there problems & stuff & they say I am very helpful,
Get better Benz.

<3

I am addicted to a drug (it's a person, but whatever), and I'm going cold turkey. I need to remove myself from the essence of the problem, and that's what I'm doing.


I am addicted to a drug as well,
But her name is Mary J.

[l00t me kill]

I know its none of my buisness, what what is causing such stress? Ive thought of it a while back, But im over it now. Soon it will be over for you...Depression sucks, im depressed most of the time over stupid **** for who knows what reason.

[firezone99]

My brother thinks of suicide as well and has attempt it before.
He jumped off the stairs from a second floor although it is not high but the first to second floor stairs are the longest like 2-3m high.He jumped and now he has so many back problems and stuffs.
Some ways to calm yourself down is to occupy yourself with something so like others chat with us on irc or level some skills but off your pm as many will pm u.
I know u can do it=]

[pumped]

OK thanks for telling us Benz, hope you feel better.

[Hugh Hefner]

Some ways to calm yourself down is to occupy yourself with something so like others chat with us on irc or level some skills


^ Good idea,
Make a pure skiller or a staker.
That will take it off your mind.
Or maybe a new main.
Make it so you are first person to have 2 accounts that are both level 126.

[Italy68]

I hope you can solve your problems, be strong and do not think about suicide.

[ratmaster90]

everybody telling him not to think about suicide is going to make him think about it... just dont mention suicide anymore

[Boylight]

Good,havent talked with you either and dont want to if you so sensitive.
Hope you get better.

[Jdc2000100]

jesus, i'll always love you benz :), if you need anything you know where i am.

[Surfacing]

everybody telling him not to think about suicide is going to make him think about it... just dont mention suicide anymore

^^ What he said, Talking about that will only make it worse.

[pure4lyf]

I hope you get through this tough time. Just remember, we are always here to help.

~Pure4lyf

[Dangt351]

I was depressed when you demodded me, now we're even, k?

~Dangt351

[Justin]

If you need someone to talk to, drop a PM or PM on IRC, I have been though this and I know how hard it can be

[Jesse]

I was depressed when you demodded me, now we're even, k?

~Dangt351


In the game you're all playing right now, it's one strike, you're out, and you just missed the ball.

I'm not joking guys.

[Justin]

I was depressed when you demodded me, now we're even, k?

~Dangt351

Wow.. Dangt.. thats low, you are soo gay now. Benz is actually depressed..
you r now on my hate list dang

[Stealth]

I support you gud sur!

[strength]

Grow some balls and get the **** over it like everybody else has to.
Don't let your pathetic irl problems affect how you moderate this game.
If you think they're going to, which quite obviously they are, leave and don't come back until you've dealt with the problem.
The players of dodian don't deserve to suffer because of your **** ups.

[J o n o]

dam man hope you feel better soon i had those thoughts once .. try talking to some 1? it helped me.

[Boylight]

Why Daniel suffers?:o

[Jesse]

By the way: Drags is right. He's one of the very few people I'll take that kind of criticism from, don't think you'll get off with saying something like that ;).

[Every1die4]

I've already kind of calmed you down in the IRC. I hope that you get better and deal with this "wall" in life. Name other people who you'd take criticism from. ;)

[mibbit]

I do play sports, I'm highly involved with a soccer program.oh, i never knew that, sorry mate

[Beansz]

I know how you feel, i was depressed too recently, due to the loss of my grandad, but you'll get over it, you just have to relax.

[Stealth]

ily benzy boy!!1

[mibbit]

ily benzy boy!!1
lol, i think this will chear u up! (benz)

[Justin]

I am really surprised on how much of the community at Dodian.com care about Benz, I thought that not a lot of people would reply

[Djswat33]

She had you suicidal, suicidal
When she said it's overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

[K and O]

I am really surprised on how much of the community at Dodian.com care about Benz, I thought that not a lot of people would reply

Well you were wrong, buddy!

[Wiz]

If you do think of contacting Mr. Benz here and calling him an emo about this:

I will burn your life and everything in it, like a cane field in high winds.
(Sorry, Just got done watching Secret Window lol)

[K and O]

I will burn your life and everything in it, like a cane field in high winds.
(Sorry, Just got done watching Secret Window lol)

Lol, that's a cool line.

[o w n e d]

Yeh, im sorry for being a prick on the IRC i didnt know, sorry, unban pl0x :l <3 <3 <3


<3 <3 Hope your ok man

[Zach]

Sorry to hear about this, Benz.

Hope your life gets better. :(

[Thanksgiving]

Hope you get through it Benz.

[Every1die4]

I am really surprised on how much of the community at Dodian.com care about Benz, I thought that not a lot of people would reply

Lol? He's my master. ;)

[Spot]

Dangt's a retard.

Sorry, but Benz is, and will always stay an Administrator. He's a very smart person, and if you catch ANY Admin in a bad mood, they'll rip your damn head off, in whichever way they please.

Don't be a fool.

[Asig]

****ty deal benz, but you gotta know a women isn't worth thoughts of suicide, they'll twist your heart and your mind but you gotta remember it's not worth it

[Nanoblade]

Hope you make a swift recovery.

Try to keep yourself occupied alot, I went through a period of serious depression, and found it better to be with my mates (rather than my family, seeing as they caused it) or like your doing, playing a game.

-Luke

[Perf]

im going through the same thing, but its not a once a month thing.
im always depressed, i have a lot of problems in life.
nothing works for me really, talking to people just gets me angry.
drugs are boring, and pointless.
the only thing i know what to do is lock my feelings up in side.
i think about suicide every single night, and its unexplainable.
i'v tryed to kill my self 3 times, and it failed every time.
i don't know what to tell you really, we all deal with are problems differently, but
for me, i just lock my feelings up, and don't share with people whats wrong.

i hope you get better benz, i really do.

[Godwielder41]

Hope you get better Benz!!!!!!! =)

It's funny how when Dangt351 was global eveyone liked him, but now when everyone saw his real side everyone thinks he's gay. This just shows you how people can disguise their real selves to get a mod position.

[D1sturb3d]

im going through the same thing, but its not a once a month thing.
im always depressed, i have a lot of problems in life.
nothing works for me really, talking to people just gets me angry.
drugs are boring, and pointless.
the only thing i know what to do is lock my feelings up in side.
i think about suicide every single night, and its unexplainable.
i'v tryed to kill my self 3 times, and it failed every time.
i don't know what to tell you really, we all deal with are problems differently, but
for me, i just lock my feelings up, and don't share with people whats wrong.

i hope you get better benz, i really do.

Dude im really sorry to hear that you have an amazing talent with you graphic and it would be a shame to have that go away because you were one of the people who inspired me to start making graphics. if you ever need to talk add me on MSN dodian1@live.ca. Or pm me.

[Fear N God]

Hope you get better Benz!!!!!!! =)

It's funny how when Dangt351 was global eveyone liked him, but now when everyone saw his real side everyone thinks he's gay. This just shows you how people can disguise their real selves to get a mod position.


stfu,
Dan deserved that spot,
& was a great guy.

[tortarune2]

I hope you get better cause i have the same problem. I sometimes get depressed and i curse at everyone. I almost cursed at the teacher once. My half sis died of cancer so that started it all. Then My mom started to bother me all the time so i got real angrey.



hope you get better,
Tortarune2

[D1sturb3d]

stfu,
Dan deserved that spot,
& was a great guy.

Dan was really nice but Benz is going through a hard time he shouldn't have said that it was disrespectful.

[Sherpa2Chris]

Well, if he did that and he came back to Dodian he would have to work his was up to admin again which I am sure he doesnt want to do. It took him 6 months as a global to get admin. he doesnt want to do it again. He could simply tell Dodian that he's gonna be inactive for a bit and be able to keep his status as an admin.

Well, I think that every teen goes through depressions and sh*t like that some time during puberty. I don't know if it's 'cause of that, or because life just sucks. Good luck finding some happiness, Jesse. I'm not sure if some random funny videos could cheer you up at a time like this, but whenever I'm feelin' down (and from what you said, it's more then that), a good ol' retarted video cheers me up. I don't think I was ever as depressed as you may be at the moment, so I can't really give you any tips on how to find happiness during such a state of emotion. Like many have said, taking some time off helping/mothering the community would probably help. To me, it seemed like a chore [moderating]. I also truly hope that you don't hurt yourself or anything like that. Once, a good friend of mine was really sad and went kinda beserk. He appeared to be depressed, but more of an "emo"-like depression. he was gonna cut himself, but he was also crying like Hell. Please don't let that happen to you. I know that you're intelligent enough to not let that happen, but I hope that hormones won't overpower you, like they do to 99% of the teens out there.
~Chris
EDIT: Ohhh... It's about a girl... Dang, I can't help you there, man.

i'v tryed to kill my self 3 times, and it failed every time. Holy **** dude

[Godwielder41]

stfu,
Dan deserved that spot,
& was a great guy.

I'm just saying what other people are saying so no, I will not shut the f*ck up. Also the key word in your phrase was ''was''. That implies that he isn't a great guy at the moment. So you agree with me? LOL

Offensive language much? Reported?

Also again Benz I hope you get over your depression.
Like the one America will be in. =)

[Sherpa2Chris]

Buy WOW. It will seriously take your mind off of it.(it could suck you in :o) You've got a good point there. The problem is that he might never come back... :eek: I'm surprised that I managed not to play for two days. :D It does really make you forget about the rest of the world when you've playing. That is, if you like the game. It's pretty much you either don't like it during the first 30 minutes of playing, or you're hooked on it until you're unable to handle it anymore. It's a good distraction from life. Specially if you've got headphones in and it's loud enough so you can only hear the game. ;)

[Jesse]

The next one to mention Dangt351 is getting perm banned from anything relating to Dodian, by the way.

[5654543]

Who r Dangt351?

[Fear N God]

I'm just saying what other people are saying so no, I will not shut the f*ck up. Also the key word in your phrase was ''was''. That implies that he isn't a great guy at the moment. So you agree with me? LOL

Offensive language much? Reported?
)


Actually no,
Wrong,
He 'was' a good guy because he is perm banned,
& I can no longer talk with him,
So he 'was' a nice guy while I knew him.
& I am sure he still IS.

Did you seriously report me,
For what exactly?

[Asian]

Actually no,
Wrong,
He 'was' a good guy because he is perm banned,
& I can no longer talk with him,
So he 'was' a nice guy while I knew him.
& I am sure he still IS.

Did you seriously report me,
For what exactly?


The next one to mention Dangt351 is getting perm banned from anything relating to Dodian, by the way.


Oh Jeez :0

[Blub Klub]

Aw c'mon now. What does sulking around being sad and depressed and suicidal solve?

Nothing. See a therapist,they can help. But being woebegone,or desolate,or doleful, or melancholy, or downtrodden,or whatever you want to call it won't get you anywhere but further down. Like Sherpa said,go watch a retarded video.

Or since it's about a girl...well I'm not sure if you broke up with one or want one or what.

-Kirby

[Stecki]

wow, when i first read the title i thought u meant the girl time of the month (litttle kids might read this so im being cryptic lol).

sorry to hear bout your problems man, one of my mates was like this for a while, and it was bad enough for us.

~stecki

[Rain of Fire]

Well, i have been through what your going through right now. It does suck. So i know how you feel. I got over it. If you need to, I may be able to help with anything. Up to you.